Haircut,

Day twenty-one! :)

I got a haircut today. :) You can't really see it in the picture to the right, but you know. I didn't like it too much at first, but I actually do like it. I missed having bangs. I feel cute!

Nothing else really happened today. My friend, Sid, was supposed to come over in the morning for a little while, but he wasn't able to. It's alright though, because I was barely awake when he called me and said he couldn't. Heh.

Aw, there's school tomorrow. It feels like a Saturday today.

You wanna know something really funny? I was playing hide & go seek with my dog, Pepper, yesterday! It was actually really fun. Do you see how silly I am? I think it was cool that Pepper actually cooperated with me during the game. I was laughing so hard. It was ridiculous.

Well I don't really have much else to say. I have to finish that essay for tomorrow. I would just type it, but I don't have anywhere to print it! My teacher, Mrs. Lisa, says I can't send it to her in an e-mail either. I am allowed to hand in a written paper, it doesn't have to be typed. I would prefer it to be typed though. Maybe I'll go see if my mom's printer works. :)

Well that's all. I love how my motivation is just flowing back. I hope these no-motivation periods don't come very often.

Goodbye! :)

When We Were Kids,

Day twenty. :)

I have little to no motivation, but here's something I thought was cute.

Alright, here to the left we have my cousin Anthony! :) Here's something I thought was cute; just read our AIM conversation.

By the way, we were joking around just saying "yo" after every sentence.

meeeRa says: yo, i'm gonna chill with you one day--yo.
XrockbusterX92: how so yo?
meeeRa says: i don't know--yo.
meeeRa says: you only live in edison--yo.
meeeRa says: that's one town over--yo.
XrockbusterX92: rofl
XrockbusterX92: lets go to the beach yo
meeeRa says: what!?--yo.
XrockbusterX92: and we can run around holdin hands yo
meeeRa says: ...yo?!
XrockbusterX92: like we was kids yo
meeeRa says: you have kids yo!?
meeeRa says: hahah.
XrockbusterX92: no
meeeRa says: oh.
meeeRa says: yo.
XrockbusterX92: when we was kids
XrockbusterX92: we used to do that yo
meeeRa says: we did that when we were kids yo?
meeeRa says: are you sure? how do you know that? --yo.
XrockbusterX92: I kept getting teased by the fam
meeeRa says: aw.. --yo.
XrockbusterX92: lol
XrockbusterX92: no prob tho
XrockbusterX92: yo'
meeeRa says: but seriously--we did that? yo.
XrockbusterX92: yerp
meeeRa says: when!? yo.
XrockbusterX92: when we were little
XrockbusterX92: like
XrockbusterX92: 6-8
XrockbusterX92: ish
XrockbusterX92: yo
meeeRa says: no way yo.
meeeRa says: why don't i remember that yo?
XrockbusterX92: I didn't remember either
meeeRa says: then how do you know yo!?
XrockbusterX92: the family teased me about it
meeeRa says: when? yo?
XrockbusterX92: uh
XrockbusterX92: a few years ago
meeeRa says: &they said my name yo?
XrockbusterX92: yep
XrockbusterX92: "don't you remember?
XrockbusterX92: you and miranda would walk around the beach
XrockbusterX92: holding hands"
XrockbusterX92: and I'm like
XrockbusterX92: "wtf seriously?"
meeeRa says: hahahahaahahah!
meeeRa says: WHEN. WAS. THiS.
meeeRa says: I WANT VIDEO PROOF!
XrockbusterX92: psssh

Yes, that's exactly how it went. Please don't harass him on AIM now that you know his screen name.

Well that's all i've got. Today was alright. I was pretty tired. I'm proud that I got something down at least. You know? Okay, farewell for now! :)

Still No Motivation,

I don't even know what day it is. I hate having no motivation to write anything. The only thing that happened was Queen sleeping over. That's it. I feel as though I have no patience to continue. Something fun is coming up tomorrow and the following day though. ;) That's all I can say. Farewell--until I receive motivation.

No Motivation,

I have no motivation to write anything. :(
That's probably why I missed yesterday too.
Aw man.

Don't Forget,

Day seventeen.

Did you forget that I was even alive? Did you forget everything we ever had? Did you forget about me? Did you regret ever standing by my side? Did you forget what we were feeling inside? Now i'm left to forget about us. But somewhere we went wrong; we were once so strong. Our love is like a song--you can't forget it. So now I guess this is where we have to stand. Did you forget ever holding my hand? Never again--please don't forget. We had it all. We were just about to fall even more in love than we were before. I won't forget about us. And at last, all the pictures have been burned. And all the past is just a lesson we've learned. I won't forget. Please don't forget us. Our love is like a song, but you won't sing along. You've forgotton about us.

I don't know. I'm feeling sort of moody-ish. I've just been thinking about stuff. Everyone I'm talking to is thinking about certain things too. It's weird.

The end.

Relaaaaaax,

Day sixteen! Hello! :)

I'm feeling a bit off today, I must admit. I went home early since I didn't really feel good. I feel a bit better now though. I've still got a slight headache, but I'll manage. Today was relaxing. It really did me good. I know that I'm still just a teen and it's not really believeable that I go through stress and such, but I actually do. Teens need a day to kick back too, you know.

After my headache got better, I decided to go to the library and return the stuff I borrowed. Then I took out another book, and three DVDs. One of them was "27 Dresses" and I just finished watching it. :) It was a really cute movie.

Even though I was really tired, I didn't sleep. This way I could go to bed early and feel really good and refreshed tomorrow. One thing that I hate equally to stomach-aches would have to be feeling tired. Especially in the morning! Ugh, I hate that. Anywho, this was a good day off for me. Even though I still have a bit of a headache, and I'm slightly dizzy, it was a really enjoyable day.

Oh! I forgot to mention this cool chicka that read my blog. :) Her name is Ebony and her birthday is November 18. Now I bet you're wondering what that has to do with anything. Well, she actually falls under "Love&Friendships" for that list of birthdays I have. Isn't that awesome? Uh, YES. :)

I've been thinking about my no-boyfriend situation lately. That's not the only thing that gets me down. It's also the fact that I'm not really crushing on anyone either. Having a crush is one of the best parts! Well for me--anyway.

The weather right now is amazing! It's gorgeous outside! I don't really know how to enjoy this day though, so i'll just admire it from afar.

Oh and about 13 more days until I get my braces off. :D

Well that's all for now. Farewell. :)

Volleyball,

Well hello there day fifteen! :)

I actually had a pretty good day today. :) I had a normal day of school, but it wasn't entirely bland. Then after school I watched the volleyball game. South Plainfield won, but i'm okay with that because Queen is on that team. :) When I took the late bus home, it was the cutest thing! A couple of freshman boys knew me! They knew my name and all that, but I didn't know them. I don't know, I've always liked that feeling in a weird kind of way. Do you know what I mean? This one guy especially, that sat next to me, was a total sweetheart. He knew all this stuff about me because he actually reads the stuff on my myspace. I don't know, but that melts my heart because I always have this feeling that nobody cares, and when I find that somebody does actually care, it just makes my whole day. I gave him a kiss on the cheek. :)

That was pretty much my day. I'm extremely tired though. I want to go to sleep so badly, but I still have random oddities to do.

I forgot to tell you about my dream that I had two nights ago. It was so weird! I can't really remember all of it (but then again, when can I?), but I know most of the end. Alright, so we had a house in what looked like my Aunt Cecil's neighborhood. I believe it's something like a country club? Anywho, my mom, supposedly my brother, and I were driving home. We left my lola (which means grandma in tagalog) at the house because we weren't going to take long where ever we had gone. Suddenly, I see my cats roaming around the neighborhood. I see Butters, Taylor, and Sasha just walking around. I'm shocked and when I get home I check to see if it were really our cats. It turned out that my lola had left a window or something open and they had gone out. I can't remember the next part, so I'll just skip ahead. We're having some kind of barbecue at our house. I walk outside and my Uncle Tony is grilling these amazing smelling and looking burgers. I have a small conversation with him, but I don't remember what about. Then I look up towards the sky and it starts to rain really hard. I run inside, but my Uncle Tony is still outside trying to grill the burgers. That's actually all I can remember.

That's kind of weird, huh? Yeah.

Well I suppose I'll go now. Until tomorrow! :)

Last Night,

Hello day fourteen again! :)
OR, week two! :D

My attempt at staying up all night long failed. Oh well. However, I did have fun last night! Has anyone tried to use the "talk" feature on AIM? Queen and I did! It's almost like being on the phone, minus the cost, and minus the annoying small item you have to hold to your ear. Although, my microphone was pretty crappy and I got cut off a lot. No matter, it was still fun. We actually played snaps through the microphone. It was pretty fun. She kept me entertained until 5AM.

I woke up around 1:30PM today. Ugh. More of a day wasted! Masai said that we could hang out today. He hasn't talked to me since yesterday afternoon. I don't really know what's going on. If he calls or something, then I'll answer, but until then, I'll be here by myself. :S

I said I was going to watch Spanglish, but I forgot. Maybe I can return those other movies that I rented from the library now that I watched them. I still have that scary movie that I wanted to watch. I don't want to watch it alone though. It's still daylight out. Maybe I'll watch it.

Well that's all for now. I'll post again when the day is near ending.

Queen,

Day fourteen, as of 26minutes ago. :)

My friend, Queen, just left. It made me sad. Now I'm lonely and have nothing to do. We baked a chocolate cake. :) It's called Devil's Food. She called David, and he called a couple of times. We laughed at things, especially videos of these people. We also played guitar. I played her a song, and then she made a song. It was funny. Then we played snaps. Having her over was fun. :D

I really didn't do anything today though. I watched "Saved!" and some of "Napoleon Dynamite". I think I might go watch "Spanglish" also. I rented them from the library, so I might as well.

Mia was actually supposed to sleepover, but she didn't cause she was sick. I don't know. Oh well though. There's more I could say, but I don't think I will. It's just... I don't know.

Nothing really else to say. My mom went out tonight. That's good for her. I actually wanted to go with her. Hah! She said I couldn't cause she was going to a bar. Sometimes I wish I were older.

Well, that's all for now. Until later on today--

Sushi-Dreams,

Hello, hello day thirteen! :)

I had this dream that I actually remember most of.

I wanted to go somewhere after school. I didn’t know who to hang out with, so I decided to go over Rachel’s house. Her house wasn’t normally where it usually is in real life. It was actually past what I thought to be Edison. Anyway, me and her friends were all hanging out, and we even went to an Asian restaurant that was close by. It was like a sushi type of place. Well it grew darker and I needed to get home somehow. I figured I could walk home, but it’s a pretty far walk, and I might get lost somehow along the way. I decided to call Clarissa to see if I could get a ride. I was getting that really scared-nervous feeling inside of me, and it was growing bigger. Then Clarissa came to the Asian restaurant and I told her I needed a ride to my house. She then said something along the lines of, “Oh, you want me to take you THERE? No! I can’t. I’m busy. I’m flirting with this guy.” I was then pleading to her to take me home. She still said no. I gave up, said “fine”, cried, and walked away. I was really scared to walk home through Edison, because that’s sort of a bad part of town. I had no choice though. I wasn’t going to call my mom to come pick me up or anything. I kept walking through, and I was really scared and I felt like I had no idea where I was going. Then I came up to a mall, which you have to pass through to get to my house. So I went inside the mall, and my mom calls me. I don’t pick up though. I just text her back saying, “I’ll be home soon!”, and keep walking. I feel almost lost walking through the mall, but I see some familiar stores and it makes me feel a little better. My mom texts me back saying, “Okay, you better, or else I’m going to call the cops on you.” I feel a little afraid after reading that. I sort of forget what happens next, but somehow my mom finds that I’m in the mall. She sees me, but for some reason I’m running from her. I run up stairs, and go through weird doors. She soon is on my tail, literally about 2 feet away from me. I finally come through to what looks kind of like a Macy’s store, because it looked like the inside of a living room or bedroom, but it was a store. For some reason, there’s almost like a business party where I am, and my mom and I get stuck inside this living room-business-party room. We, for some reason, can’t get out the way we came in. I even look outside the balcony window to see if there’s a fire escape we could possibly use, but it’s too far down and there’s no way to get on to the balcony. We figured it out somehow and I finally walked out down the hall, and outside the store entrance. Actually, the last part, of me being in the party room, may have happened with or without my mom being there. I can’t remember which.

Weird, right? Yes, I know. It was the longest dream I've had lately.

It's already 2:36PM, and I haven't done anything! I hate, hate, hate, when I waste my weekends. I need to start waking up super early! Or maybe I just won't sleep! I like that idea. ;)

I'm sort of thinking about watching the Sex&The City movie. I don't know yet.

Feels like a waste of an entry. Oh well. I have nothing else to say. I'll let you know if something interesting happens. :P

Meow-La,

I'm off track now! I missed a day, so now I don't know what to call this! :S Is it.. day eleven? Or is it day twelve?! And what will I call tomorrow? Oh no! Alright, well I'm just going to call this day twelve. Technically, that's what it really is.

Yesterday, I went to the mall with Jamal. I only went with him so I could buy this book that I wanted. It's called, "The Power of Birthdays, Stars, &Numbers: The Complete Personology Reference Guide" and it's the same book that Rachel's cousin has. :) I wanted my own copy though. It was actually about 25dollars. There goes my money. :T I love books like these! When October hits, I'll have 60dollars again, and I'll hopefully buy another book that's like this.

I made a video with my cats! :) You should watch it.



Other than that, you can watch me sing. :) It sounds kind of bad, and I mess up, but oh well. :P



Well that's all I've got for today. :)

Birthdays,

What is this? Day ten? Oh, goodie! :)

As you all may know by now, I'm really interested in Astrology and such. I own this book called, "The Secret Language of Birthdays" and I love it! Will somebody buy me another Astrology book? c[: Anyway, my friend|half-sister Rachel's cousin has this other book and it contains a list of birthdays that should be important to you. There's four categories. The four categories are beneficial, love and friendships, soul mates, and fatal attractions. It's fun to find people with birthdays that fall under those categories. This is what I found so far:

Kamisha Hagood - [Challenging] - I've known Kamisha for kind of a while. I don't really understand why she falls under challenging though. :P

Jonathan LiVolsi - [Love&Friendship] - I just met Jon this year, but I already love being around him. He's really funny and I would rather be around him than a lot of other people I know. I can understand why he's under "Love&Friendship". :)

Siddharth Patil - [Challenging] - I actually knew Sid since I was little. I can't remember when I actually had a class with him, but I believe that would be 2nd and 4th grade. Maybe even 3rd grade, I can hardly recall. Anyway, we hadn't talked ever since because I moved, but then he found me and now we talk everyday. I can't understand why he falls under "Challenging" though. He thinks because our personalities contrast. I guess that makes sense.

Amanda (Mia) Vakulchik - [Challenging] - Mia is one of my best friends. Now this time I really don't know why she falls under "Challenging". I really have no idea. It doesn't make sense to me because me and her get along really well and such. I guess we don't see eye to eye all the time. We never fight though, so this is a really good friendship. :)

Masai (Possum) Nazaire - [Love&Friendship] - Right off the bat, I definitely understand why he falls under this category. I'll admit up to my extreme obsession-like crush for him in 6th grade. Then we got to know each other. Us being together as a couple went on and off until about the end of 8th grade. We stopped talking for a while in the beginning of 9th grade. Then towards the end of 9th grade we became best friends again. Masai is my other best friend, along side with Mia. As you see, we really do have "Love&Friendship". :D

Alexandria (Alexicaca) Datri - [Love&Friendship] - Aw, I knew Alex from when I was very young. We're cousins! Why wouldn't we be close to each other to begin with? Whenever we see each other, we're always laughing and joking around. We enjoy each other's company entirely and I'd have to say that she is my most favorite cousin. I love all of my other cousins of course, but me and Alex just click so well like that. It's no wonder that she falls under this category.

Amun'Ra Archbold - [Fatal Attraction] - I can't remember when I met him. I'll honestly say that this was a fatal attraction. I'm really attracted to him, but I don't know. Somehow it's just not meant to be, I guess. I hope that doesn't make it sound bad. He's the only one that I found under "Fatal Attraction" so far.

Derina (Deribunny) Tanumihardja - [Love&Friendship] - I knew Deri over myspace from a while ago. I didn't get really close to her until I actually started hanging out with her in school and outside of school with other friends. I tell her a lot of my secrets and she tells me most of hers (I think). I can definitely understand why she falls under "Love&Friendship". :)

Andrew Williams - [Beneficial] - I will honestly say and admit that I fall in and out of love with this boy constantly. That's really all I can say. I don't know why he falls under "Beneficial" though. I was thinking that maybe he teaches me something that I don't really notice consciously. Perhaps he teaches me something sub-consciously. That makes the most sense to me.

Queen (Daughter) Campbell - [Beneficial] - I figured that she would fall under "Love&Friendship", not "Beneficial". I don't really understand that. I love Queen though. I met her last year and she calls me "madre". This apparently makes me her mother, and she, my daughter. Me and her talk about a lot of things that I can't really talk to most other people. She understands things that some people don't. I'm always there for her for whatever she needs, and hopefully, she there's for me too. Still, I don't know why she falls under "Beneficial". I guess, just like Andrew, she may be teaching me something sub-consciously. That's okay with me though. :)

Rachel (RayCharles, half-sister) Angela Persaud - [Love&Friendship] - "Love&Friendship" is totally understandable for Rachel. I knew her from a while ago, when my brother was dating her sister. When her sister came over, Rachel would come over too and we'd hang out. We found that we have so many things in common! We just started calling each other half-sisters. You wouldn't believe the amount of things we have in common. Lately we hardly hang out because her sister no longer goes out with my brother. It's just a lot harder to get together nowadays. I still love her company, along with her sister's. We hang out every now and again, and I enjoy when we do. Her falling under "Love&Friendship" is more than understandable.

That's all I've got so far. I find it really interesting. I've been asking people for their birthday all night, and they all ask me why. I just say "nothing, just wondering" and they respond with something along the lines of, "...ooookay...". :) Funny, right?

Other than that, my day was decent I guess. Nothing great or spectacular.

Our Chinese teacher actually came to school today. For the past week, he hasn't been here because he had to get emergency surgery done. He's finally here now and we actually get to start learning stuff. I think it's really fun. I had so much fun in that class trying to pronounce words. And with Jonathan and Christopher in that class with me just makes it a whole lot better. :)

That's really all I have for today. :) Thanks for reading!

Milky,

Day nine! :)

Alright, I'm really aiming for this kid. He has a girlfriend though. What am I going to do? It's the only problem I have. He's in love with another girl. I hope that maybe there'll somehow be a chance for me.

I was reading through my old diaries again. I love doing that. You wouldn't believe the stuff I used to write. They're so weird, cute, and interesting. I've always wanted to share them with people, but you know, they're DIARIES. The whole point is that it's private.

For all of my ex-boyfriends, I say this:

"And so it is, just like you said it would be. Life goes easy on me, most of the time. And so it is, the shorter story, no love, no glory. And so it is, just like you said it should be. We'll both forget the breeze, most of the time. And so it is, the colder water, the blower's daughter, the pupil in denial. Did I say that I loathe you? Did I say that I want to leave it all behind? I can't take my mind off you, until I find somebody new."

That's actually a song called "The Blower's Daughter" by Damien Rice. I like that song. :)

I decided to try this sort of milk diet. It's kind of weird. Drink three cups of fat-free or non-fat milk everyday. At least it's not like one of those weird fad diets. It's pure and healthy. It's good for you! What could be better? Of course it won't make me lose tons of weight, but it helps. That's always good.

I slept when I got home again. I hate when I do that, but I love it at the same time.

Oh! My dream I had last night! I have to tell you about it!
I can barely remember, but I know for a fact that my mom, Masai, Corey, Xavier, and everyone from school was there. I only remember the ending of my dream. We were all at this block party sort of thing. I don't really know what it was, but it was so festive outside. It was nearing night time, and there were colorful lights, and everybody was there. There were stores and street vendors. It was like a street|block party. I was with my mom and my friends. Masai, my mom, and I go into a store. Xavier runs in and tells us that the cops are coming. Apparently we can get in trouble for doing this whole street party thing. What I got from it was that we weren't supposed to be out in the street. Everyone starts running towards this big tunnel down the street. Everyone that was with me runs towards where the cops are coming because we had to grab our bikes. My mom, Masai, Corey, Xavier, and I grab our bikes and we race down the street through the tunnel. I had a plastic bag in my hand too. As we're racing through the tunnel that connects that street to a school (supposedly the one I go to), I see all these people I know. One familiar face I recognized was Jillian Himmerlick's. I sort of feel bad for them because they don't know that the cops are on that street and are going to get them.
Then my mom woke me up.

It's so weird. I'm really tired though, so I'm going to head to bed. Goodnight.

Astrological-ness,

Hello again day eight.

I'm in one of those moods where nothing feels right. I feel so lost. I don't know what to think anymore! Everything has changed. Everyone keeps moving ahead of me, and i'm still far behind.

Along with that, i'm really into astrology, and i've been more into it lately. I love to look up things about zodiac signs and the whole personality thing and such. Especially when I like guys, I look up if we're compatible or not. :P Anyway, i've been searching and here's what I found out about me! It's extremely true, you wouldn't even believe! You get to learn about me. :)

Cancers are loyal, dependable, caring, adaptable, and responsive. However, they're also moody, clingy, self-pitying, oversensitive, and self-absorbed.
Cancer is the astrology sign that is packed full of contradictions so when it comes to independence, they possibly can or can not be independent. On one side, they have the perseverance and drive to do what needs to be done, they are self-sufficient and do not need to depend on other people for the material and physical things in life. On the other hand, they depend on people for emotional support and encouragement. A Cancer that is not fully self-actualized will need the constant support of others and will not be very independent but the Cancer that is 'evolved' and has properly harnessed their emotional issues will be wildly successful as an independent human being. They crave attention and comfort from other people and they are happiest when they have a small, close knit group of friends or family.
Cancer is extremely loyal to those who appreciate and support them, they are the nurturer of the zodiac and will protect and cherish the person for a long time. One of the greatest things about Cancer is their ability to make others feel good about themselves and loved. This is because instead of doing this for themselves, they project this onto other people. This is a positive cycle because in making others feel nurtured, wanted and loved, they in return feel good for making someone feel good. Other people can lean on and depend on cancer, they will listen to people's problems and help them however they will rarely express their own deep feelings to anyone. People who want to share deep emotional thoughts and opinions with a Cancer might feel that the scales are tipped on one side for cancer will rarely reveal it's true deep feelings. A friend of Cancer is usually a lifelong devoted friend that can be trusted.
Once cancer resolved their emotional issues such as shyness and insecurity, the powerful character will shine though, there is practically nothing they can't do. They have incredible perseverance and will stand up for what they believe in. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. They are excellent business people and investors because of their intuitive and psychic ability and their creative forward thinking mind, they are able to predict future trends. They attract wealth very well and know where to invest. Money and financial well being is very important to Cancer and this can help their drive in business. They need financial security and if they allow themselves to properly focus their energy and do not allow their emotions to over take them, they are more then capable of obtaining their financial goals and being incredibly successful business people.
They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more than any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. Even when all needs are satisfied, they can be irritable and cranky. They have an uneasy, delicate temperament. The contradictory nature of Cancer gives their temperament the wild mood swings and possible temper tantrums. They are easily offended and will sulk and wallow in self pity for a long time when they get hurt.
It is difficult for cancer to open up and have a close emotionally fulfilled relationship with someone because they are so closed off emotionally and physically to the world. This is driven by their fear of trust, Cancer has a difficult time trusting people. This causes built up anger and resentment inside, the contradictory nature really takes a toll on them and they can have a negative outlook on life, thinking that life is just too hard and miserable. This is unfortunate because when good experiences are to be had, they are skeptical of people and their surroundings and they experience tunnel vision due to their depressed outlook and they miss the nice things and happy experiences in life that make it worth living. In addition to lack of trust for people, Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this is other reason why they have their defense shell in place, to avoid being hurt by others. Cancer lives in the past. They hold past events close to them and often dwell on the past. They have to learn to let go and live in the present instead of spending their time being sick with nostalgia. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. Cancer is constantly feeling, feelings and emotions are hallmarks of this sign and this is the root of their problems, human beings are not as evolved in the emotional area and this is where cancer gets the brunt of their problems. They are the ones who have to cope with their strong feelings more so than any other sign. Once properly harnessed, there is nothing that this powerful astrology sign can not accomplish. Harmony is very important to Cancer, it keeps them happy. Conflict of any kind causes great distress. Deep inside, Cancer is a very powerful sign, they have the ability to stand up for what they think is right and they have lots of perseverance and can be fine on their own provided they don't let their emotions get the better of them and have the stability they need. They are not fond of change but they have the ability to do what needs to be done, they are not pushovers or lazy people.
Cancer is a mysterious sign, filled with contradictions. They want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky and indifferent. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that can be easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior. The crab is Cancer's ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and fight but they can also hide in their shell or skitter away back into the depths of the ocean. They are very unpredictable. With cancer, there is always something more that meets the eye, for they are always partially hidden behind the shell. They have a deep psyche and intuitive mind that is hidden from the world. Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this might be why they have their defense shell in place, to avoid being hurt by others. They are nurturers so they surround themselves with people, whom after a while can offend or hurt a cancer without even knowing they did so, therefore Cancer's protective shell keeps them safe from hurt. When cancer gets the support it needs, it has a tremendous amount to offer in return. When cancer gets offended, they tend to sulk instead of confronting the persons face to face. This needlessly prolongs the pain and suffering. Cancer is very possessive, not just with material possessions but with people as well. Cancer will always want to stay in touch with old friends and anyone who has ever been close to them, because it is easier to maintain a friendship then attempt to learn to trust a new person. It is easier this way for them emotionally. If you befriend a Cancer, you will stay friends for a long time. Cancer makes the perfect mother, this is the sign that represents motherhood. They have unconditional love and caring more so then any other astrology sign. Cancers are very intuitive. Most of the psychics of the world are Cancer astrology signs. They have an excellent memory and are very observant and can read people very well. They can usually tell of other people's intentions are good or not. Never dupe a Cancer, they can see your motives. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake.
The Cancer woman is a very sensual woman with deep emotions and passion brewing underneath the exterior. To reach these will require time, patience and tenderness. Do not expect to have her open up to you right away and jump into a relationship. She will not make the first move and will not be forward with you, you have to do all the work. Do not try to lead her on because Cancer woman is very in-tune with a persons motivations and she will see right through you. Trust is the single most important thing to Cancer. If you ever betray her trust, you might as well move on. She needs love and security. Cancer is the perfect woman for the man who loves to sweep a woman off her feet with romance. She is sensual, sweet and flirty and you two will engage in a gentle, flirtatious dance together while the relationship builds. Once there is a solid, secure foundation, the richness of the relationship will emerge. She is old fashioned, feminine and sensual and patient, if you are the man who can give her what she wants, a relationship with a Cancer woman is wholesome and rewarding and can last a lifetime.

How To Attract Cancer:

You must be direct, Cancer will not. Let your feelings for them be known, this is the first step to initiating a relationship with a Cancer. This way, will not have to risk rejection, one of their biggest fears. If you are looking for a short fling, be straight with them. Do not lead them on to thinking there is a long term commitment if there is none because you will hurt these emotionally delicate people. Trust is the most important. Build trust with them and they will gradually get closer to you. Give them approval and compliments but be careful because they will easily sense when you are complimenting them just for the sake of it. Be sincere. Ask Cancer for advice, share your problems (but don't burden them), they enjoy helping people and giving advice. They like culture and lavish experiences. Take them to a play or museum and a fancy, upscale restaurant. Do not force Cancer into a relationship or make them make a decision on the spot. They will shy away from you. Have patience, this is the key to attracting a Cancer. Be physical with them, they love genuine affection. They are very cautious and as time passes, they will slowly grow closer to you and you will have wonderful, fulfilling relationship.

July 6:
The Day of Magnetic Desire

Those born on July 6 are invariably involved in relationships and careers where there is a mutual attraction|magnetism working with the object of their desire. There is a fatalistic cast to the lives of July 6 people in that life decisions sometimes seem less like choices than inevitabilities for them.
The passion shown by July 6 people toward their fixation, whatever it happens to be, may seem unalterable once set, particularly in their younger days. Indeed, for July 6 people, the emotional motivation to do something can override consideration of an endeavor aforethought and make for a kind of fait accompli. For example, they may get it into their mind that they must have another person as a lover or a friend. Or perhaps they are possessed of a desire for a prize, award, career, or office. It is also possible that they are magnetically drawn to money or sex, independent of any specific object or person.
The dangers of these magentic desires to the July 6 person are manifold. The shock, disappointment, and grief attendant to losing the object of their desire can be catastrophic, and if, indeed, they have put all of their eggs in one basket, they may have ignored or overlooked some more obviously sensible object for their affections or ambition, even for years. Later they may become bitter on the subject and be filled with regret. If more general areas (like sex and money for example) are the object of their desire, they will of course come into contact with all kinds of human energy, both positive and negative. Those born on this day who surrender body and soul to desire may compromise their ideals, self-interest, and ever self-respect as they become entangled in unhealthy relationships.
Though maturity may come at a considerable cost, most born on this day eventually learn through experience to weigh the advantages and disadvantages of an endeavor or conquest before setting their sights on it. More highly evolved July 6 people realize that desire in itself can be positive, but the attachment to objects and a refusal to let go can be very destructive. These more advanced individuals understand that one must keep moving on in life, not getting stuck, obsessed, dependent, and mired in one's emotions. They will use their magnetic abilities to further their personal growth, learning, consciousness, and personal outlook.
Having the inside track on magnetic desire, July 6 people face great challenge and responsibility. The principal lesson they must learn is to treat each day, each moment, each person with whom they interact, with care and kindness, rather than devoting all their energy to a single object of desire (which ultimately leads to jealousy, envy, possesiveness, and all sorts of frustrations). Best of all, those born on July 6 may find that dropping obsessiveness for a lighter, more well-rounded approach to life can prove to be like trading in a heavy burden for a new-found joy.
Those born on this 6th day of the month are ruled by the number 6 and by the planet Venus. Because those ruled by the number 6 are magnetic in attracting love and admiration, and since Venus is strongly connected with social interaction, it is often a struggle for July 6 people to get the privacy and seclusion they need for work, as well as the emotional space necessary for the above-mentioned personal growth. Romantic love is often the dominant theme in the life of a person ruled by the number 6.
The 6th card of the Major Arcana is The Lovers, symbolizing the love that unites all of humanity through integration of masculine and feminine polarities. On the good side, this card indicates affections and desires on a high moral, aesthetic and physical plane; on the bad side, unfulfilled desires, sentimentality, and indecisiveness. Since the astrology of Cancer lends strongly magnetic Moon influences, and both the Tarot and the number 6 show the primary influence of Venus, there are few brakes available to July 6 people to slow the magnetic desires outlined above.
July 6 people periodically need time off from their work and relationships to be alone, in order to develop self-control, and awareness. As described, those born on this day manifest a kind of addictive behavior to life in general, so of course they must avoid habit-forming drugs of all sorts. They must also beware of food and drink addictions, or worse yet harmful starvation diets in which they deny themselves essential nutrients. If possible, they should eat a well-rounded, balanced diet and not get stuck in any food obsessions or fetishes.
Learn to move on. Keep your mind open to new experiences and change. Develop your willpower and insight in order to withstand addictive or harmful temptations. Enjoy yourself in an easy way. Keep it light.

"I am the point at which two lines intersect."

Strengths: Attractive, Intent, Involved
Weaknesses: Obsessive, Stuck, Addictive

Important Birthdays;
(If your birthday falls under one of these categories,
then you are to me what the category says. Interesting, yes?)
Love&Friendship:
January: 6, 16
February: 4, 14
March: 2, 12, 28, 30
April: 10, 26, 30
May: 8, 24, 26, 30
June: 6, 22, 24, 28
July: 4, 20, 22, 26, 31
August: 2, 8, 20, 24, 29
September: 6, 18, 22, 27
October: 4, 16, 20, 25
November: 12, 14, 18, 23
December: 10, 12, 16, 21

Beneficial:
January: 9, 14, 16
February: 7, 12, 14
March: 5, 10, 12
April: 3, 8, 10
May: 1, 6, 8
June: 4, 6
July: 2, 4
August: 2
September: 30
October: 28
November: 26, 30
December: 24, 28, 29

Fatal Attractions:
January: 3, 4, 5, 6 , 7, 21
February: 19
March: 17
April: 5
May: 13
June:1
July: 9
August: 7
September: 5
October: 3
November: 1
December: none

Challenging:
January: 4, 13, 28
February: 2, 21, 26
March: 9, 24
April: 7, 22
May: 5, 20
June: 3, 18
July: 11, 16
August: 14
September: 12
October: 10, 31
November: 8, 29
December: 6, 27

Soul Mates:
January: 15, 22
February: 13, 20
March: 11, 18
April: 9, 6
May: 7, 4
June: 5, 12
July: 3, 10
August: 1, 8
September: 6
October: 4
November: 2
December: none

Positives of July 6 People:
Worldy, Universal Brotherhood, Friendly, Compassionate, Dependable, Understanding, Sympathetic, Idealistic, Domestically Inclined Humanitarian, Poised, Artistic, Balanced

Negatives of July 6 People:
Discontented, Anxious, Shy, Stubborn, Outspoken, Disharmonious, Lack of Responsibility, Suspicious, Cynical, Self-Centered

Phew! That was a lot. There definitely could've been a whole lot more, but I didn't want it to get too long and boring. That really sums it up for me. This is exactly what I'm like, if you really wanted to know. You honestly get five stars, two thumbs up, and a trophy if you actually took the time to read it all. If you did, then I honestly admire you.

That's all for now. Until next time. ;)

Lies,

Hello day eight.

I'm a bit angry, I'll tell you that much. One thing that I can't stand is liars. I'm very gullible, and you really shouldn't take advantage of that if you care about me. I don't know. I just can't deal with it anymore. I'll honestly tell you that i'm talking about egg. I seriously think that we weren't meant to be together. The only thing is that I really want us to be together. I'm working hard just for us to work, and it's hardly doing any good! It's not working! Aside from the fact that he's already messed up in the head, he gets mad so easily. It's so hard to please him. I really shouldn't be putting all this work in. I don't even know what to do. I found out that he lied--again! He flirts with other girls too, so what am I supposed to even do? He says he loves me, but I can't see it. All I hear are words. Actions speak louder than words baby! And that's the lesson for today.

Other than that, today was average. It was just a whatever day. It wasn't bad, but it wasn't spectacular. I have nothing else to say.

Masai is supposed to be coming over soon. That'll keep me happy and entertained for now.

Get a Life,

Hello one week! :) Already one week? Gosh!

What did I do today? I woke up at my usual 12PM. It bothers me when I wake up kind of late. The day is half-way over at 12PM! However, I woke up at 7AM too. I think it was from this bad dream I was having. I hardly remember what it was about. I think I was with a group of people, and it was just like a horror movie. I was running around corners and down stairs or elevators. Somebody was coming after me. I kept going down what looked like the same hallways. I noticed that I also wasn't running out of breath, which I normally would if it were real life. Suddenly it was just me, and I almost got caught. Somehow I managed to run through the same hallways at least three more times. Then I go on the elevator, but it starts melting and fading away. I'm pretty sure I screamed, but then I woke up. When I woke up though, I was still dreaming. I was laying on a couch watching a movie. The movie was about what I had been going through in my dream. I believe my mom comes over to me and says something, but I can't remember what. That's all I remmeber of it. It was really weird.

Well anyway, I woke up, showered and got ready, and then my mommy and I went out. We had to go to the asian food store. Before that though, we ate at china bowl. :) I love their food! Well, while we were eating, my mom was telling me about how last night went. She also told me about her chat room friends and such. Then she told me about how people had talked about her and her (ex)fiance. They were saying that she was just using Jon for his money. Really? That's so pathetic! This is stuff that teenagers do! Who talks about people online? Especially when they're MIDDLE-AGED!? It makes no sense! You old people have no lives! You're supposed to get in the chat room to talk, chat, make friends, and then maybe go out with them later! But to start gossip and such just because you have nothing better to do in your lives is honestly retarded. Get a job! And if you have one already, then get another one! Go get a love interest! If you have one already, then shouldn't you be spending time with them? It's like you guys have no clue or something! This is what I told my mom to tell them:

"Here's a dollar. Go buy your own life. Stop using mine. It's not for rent. Thanks."

Aside from that, there's really not anything else to say. I'm in a pretty okay mood. I don't really feel like going to school tomorrow though. Just not in the mood for it. Oh! I have to do laundry! I just remembered! Good thing I did, or else I'd have no clothes for tomorrow! Hah.