I'm Back!,

Oh my lord, it's day fifty-seven!

I know I haven't really been writing in my blog. I'm a little sad about that. I've always meant to, but I was just never in the mood.

Well tons of things have happened over the course of about.. what? Two weeks? Well anyway, I lost my kitty, Butters. We found him though, so no worries about that. Also, Halloween was just two days ago! I was a kitty myself. :) Nobody could tell what I was though!

I have to tell you this story though! I went to this Halloween party with my mom and Joanne. It was pretty fun, I have to admit. Dancing, eating, partying, etc. It's the usual. Well my mom had gone outside to make a phone call. Joanne was sitting next to me. This random drunk guy is sitting on the other side of me, paying me no attention, thankfully. However, this other guy, who, I will admit, thought was slightly attractive for somebody older, had given me this look while talking to the drunk guy next to me. I couldn't really understand. I mean, the music was so loud, how could anybody hear anything? Anywho, he gave me this look again, as if he were talking to me. I motioned to him that I couldn't understand or hear him. He motions for me to come over to him. I give him a bit of an odd look and slowly get up and walk the four steps over to him. He grabs hold of my arm and asks me if i'd like to dance. I tell him that I'm not really all that great at dancing. He then asks me what my nationality is. I tell him Hispanic and Filipino. Then he asks what my name is. I tell him that my name is Miranda. He says, "Nice to meet you Miranda, I'm Sahid[sp?]" and he shakes my hand. His breath reeked of alcohol and his words were slurred. Then he says to me, "Listen, I can't tell you how I feel right now, but I'd like to. Would you like to exchange phone numbers with me, so that we could maybe meet up and get to know each other?". I look at him strangely and tell him that I would have to think about it. He then gives me this look like, "What?! You have to THINK ABOUT IT?!". I tell him sorry and turn to leave. However, he still has hold of my arm and he's still gripping tight. I give him a weird look and ask him if he's going to let go of my arm. He then says, "Don't leave me!". I laugh to myself and confront him about a girl he was with before. He then smirks, "Oh! So you were watching me?" I just roll my eyes and sit back down next to Joanne. He comes and sits next to me trying to say something. Joanne then says, "Time to go?" I couldn't really understand what she meant by that so I just replied, "Yes, in a bit. When mom comes back." This guy then grabs my attention again telling me that he just likes to have fun. I'm sure there was more of a message behind that, but the alcohol was too distracting for me to notice it. I just sit there and look at him like, "oh really?". He then says to me, "So listen, will you exchange phone numbers with me or not?". I raise an eyebrow with a slight smile on my face and plainly say, "No.". I read the disappointment on his face, but he just raises his hand and says, "Well it was nice meeting you Miranda." I reply, "you too." and he walks off. The more I think about it, he probably would've been a good, nice guy if he were sober.

Well anyway, that's all i've got to say for now. I'll try to write more often. Farewell!

Spongebob and Friday Nights,

Day twenty-four! :)

I think i'm coming down with something! :( I can feel it in my throat. Oh no! I hate being sick!

Here I am doing nothing on a Friday night. I don't have a boring life, do I? I choose to live my life this way!

Last night I went with my mom and Joanne to karaoke! :) It was fun. I made a lot of old MEN happy. >.>

I don't really have anything else to write. Tomorrow should be fun. I'm going to the mall with Anthony and his friend. :)

Masai was sick today. :( I didn't get to see him yesterday or today! Not cool. :T

Spongebob is on. :) I like Spongebob. Maybe i'll go watch Spongebob. :)

Farewell! :D

Queen,

Day fourteen, as of 26minutes ago. :)

My friend, Queen, just left. It made me sad. Now I'm lonely and have nothing to do. We baked a chocolate cake. :) It's called Devil's Food. She called David, and he called a couple of times. We laughed at things, especially videos of these people. We also played guitar. I played her a song, and then she made a song. It was funny. Then we played snaps. Having her over was fun. :D

I really didn't do anything today though. I watched "Saved!" and some of "Napoleon Dynamite". I think I might go watch "Spanglish" also. I rented them from the library, so I might as well.

Mia was actually supposed to sleepover, but she didn't cause she was sick. I don't know. Oh well though. There's more I could say, but I don't think I will. It's just... I don't know.

Nothing really else to say. My mom went out tonight. That's good for her. I actually wanted to go with her. Hah! She said I couldn't cause she was going to a bar. Sometimes I wish I were older.

Well, that's all for now. Until later on today--

Sushi-Dreams,

Hello, hello day thirteen! :)

I had this dream that I actually remember most of.

I wanted to go somewhere after school. I didn’t know who to hang out with, so I decided to go over Rachel’s house. Her house wasn’t normally where it usually is in real life. It was actually past what I thought to be Edison. Anyway, me and her friends were all hanging out, and we even went to an Asian restaurant that was close by. It was like a sushi type of place. Well it grew darker and I needed to get home somehow. I figured I could walk home, but it’s a pretty far walk, and I might get lost somehow along the way. I decided to call Clarissa to see if I could get a ride. I was getting that really scared-nervous feeling inside of me, and it was growing bigger. Then Clarissa came to the Asian restaurant and I told her I needed a ride to my house. She then said something along the lines of, “Oh, you want me to take you THERE? No! I can’t. I’m busy. I’m flirting with this guy.” I was then pleading to her to take me home. She still said no. I gave up, said “fine”, cried, and walked away. I was really scared to walk home through Edison, because that’s sort of a bad part of town. I had no choice though. I wasn’t going to call my mom to come pick me up or anything. I kept walking through, and I was really scared and I felt like I had no idea where I was going. Then I came up to a mall, which you have to pass through to get to my house. So I went inside the mall, and my mom calls me. I don’t pick up though. I just text her back saying, “I’ll be home soon!”, and keep walking. I feel almost lost walking through the mall, but I see some familiar stores and it makes me feel a little better. My mom texts me back saying, “Okay, you better, or else I’m going to call the cops on you.” I feel a little afraid after reading that. I sort of forget what happens next, but somehow my mom finds that I’m in the mall. She sees me, but for some reason I’m running from her. I run up stairs, and go through weird doors. She soon is on my tail, literally about 2 feet away from me. I finally come through to what looks kind of like a Macy’s store, because it looked like the inside of a living room or bedroom, but it was a store. For some reason, there’s almost like a business party where I am, and my mom and I get stuck inside this living room-business-party room. We, for some reason, can’t get out the way we came in. I even look outside the balcony window to see if there’s a fire escape we could possibly use, but it’s too far down and there’s no way to get on to the balcony. We figured it out somehow and I finally walked out down the hall, and outside the store entrance. Actually, the last part, of me being in the party room, may have happened with or without my mom being there. I can’t remember which.

Weird, right? Yes, I know. It was the longest dream I've had lately.

It's already 2:36PM, and I haven't done anything! I hate, hate, hate, when I waste my weekends. I need to start waking up super early! Or maybe I just won't sleep! I like that idea. ;)

I'm sort of thinking about watching the Sex&The City movie. I don't know yet.

Feels like a waste of an entry. Oh well. I have nothing else to say. I'll let you know if something interesting happens. :P

Milky,

Day nine! :)

Alright, I'm really aiming for this kid. He has a girlfriend though. What am I going to do? It's the only problem I have. He's in love with another girl. I hope that maybe there'll somehow be a chance for me.

I was reading through my old diaries again. I love doing that. You wouldn't believe the stuff I used to write. They're so weird, cute, and interesting. I've always wanted to share them with people, but you know, they're DIARIES. The whole point is that it's private.

For all of my ex-boyfriends, I say this:

"And so it is, just like you said it would be. Life goes easy on me, most of the time. And so it is, the shorter story, no love, no glory. And so it is, just like you said it should be. We'll both forget the breeze, most of the time. And so it is, the colder water, the blower's daughter, the pupil in denial. Did I say that I loathe you? Did I say that I want to leave it all behind? I can't take my mind off you, until I find somebody new."

That's actually a song called "The Blower's Daughter" by Damien Rice. I like that song. :)

I decided to try this sort of milk diet. It's kind of weird. Drink three cups of fat-free or non-fat milk everyday. At least it's not like one of those weird fad diets. It's pure and healthy. It's good for you! What could be better? Of course it won't make me lose tons of weight, but it helps. That's always good.

I slept when I got home again. I hate when I do that, but I love it at the same time.

Oh! My dream I had last night! I have to tell you about it!
I can barely remember, but I know for a fact that my mom, Masai, Corey, Xavier, and everyone from school was there. I only remember the ending of my dream. We were all at this block party sort of thing. I don't really know what it was, but it was so festive outside. It was nearing night time, and there were colorful lights, and everybody was there. There were stores and street vendors. It was like a street|block party. I was with my mom and my friends. Masai, my mom, and I go into a store. Xavier runs in and tells us that the cops are coming. Apparently we can get in trouble for doing this whole street party thing. What I got from it was that we weren't supposed to be out in the street. Everyone starts running towards this big tunnel down the street. Everyone that was with me runs towards where the cops are coming because we had to grab our bikes. My mom, Masai, Corey, Xavier, and I grab our bikes and we race down the street through the tunnel. I had a plastic bag in my hand too. As we're racing through the tunnel that connects that street to a school (supposedly the one I go to), I see all these people I know. One familiar face I recognized was Jillian Himmerlick's. I sort of feel bad for them because they don't know that the cops are on that street and are going to get them.
Then my mom woke me up.

It's so weird. I'm really tired though, so I'm going to head to bed. Goodnight.

Get a Life,

Hello one week! :) Already one week? Gosh!

What did I do today? I woke up at my usual 12PM. It bothers me when I wake up kind of late. The day is half-way over at 12PM! However, I woke up at 7AM too. I think it was from this bad dream I was having. I hardly remember what it was about. I think I was with a group of people, and it was just like a horror movie. I was running around corners and down stairs or elevators. Somebody was coming after me. I kept going down what looked like the same hallways. I noticed that I also wasn't running out of breath, which I normally would if it were real life. Suddenly it was just me, and I almost got caught. Somehow I managed to run through the same hallways at least three more times. Then I go on the elevator, but it starts melting and fading away. I'm pretty sure I screamed, but then I woke up. When I woke up though, I was still dreaming. I was laying on a couch watching a movie. The movie was about what I had been going through in my dream. I believe my mom comes over to me and says something, but I can't remember what. That's all I remmeber of it. It was really weird.

Well anyway, I woke up, showered and got ready, and then my mommy and I went out. We had to go to the asian food store. Before that though, we ate at china bowl. :) I love their food! Well, while we were eating, my mom was telling me about how last night went. She also told me about her chat room friends and such. Then she told me about how people had talked about her and her (ex)fiance. They were saying that she was just using Jon for his money. Really? That's so pathetic! This is stuff that teenagers do! Who talks about people online? Especially when they're MIDDLE-AGED!? It makes no sense! You old people have no lives! You're supposed to get in the chat room to talk, chat, make friends, and then maybe go out with them later! But to start gossip and such just because you have nothing better to do in your lives is honestly retarded. Get a job! And if you have one already, then get another one! Go get a love interest! If you have one already, then shouldn't you be spending time with them? It's like you guys have no clue or something! This is what I told my mom to tell them:

"Here's a dollar. Go buy your own life. Stop using mine. It's not for rent. Thanks."

Aside from that, there's really not anything else to say. I'm in a pretty okay mood. I don't really feel like going to school tomorrow though. Just not in the mood for it. Oh! I have to do laundry! I just remembered! Good thing I did, or else I'd have no clothes for tomorrow! Hah.

What a Fun Saturday Night,

Hello, hello day six-a-roni! :)

If you couldn't tell already, I'm in a pretty fabulous mood. :) Things are just going exactly the way they need to be. I'm stress-free as of right now. It feels great! Everybody deserves to be this happy. :D

I went to Walmart with my mommy today. I got stuff that i've been needing. I also got that poster board for my stupid English project. It doesn't sound THAT bad of a project though, I guess.

My mom is going to her party tonight! :) Fun for her, boring for me. I won't really have anything to do. My brother is at my uncle's too, so i'll be home alone. I can't really think of anywhere to be or anyone to be with me. Oh well, i'll just do my project. What a fun Saturday night.

I rearranged my room last night! Now my computer and my TV are next to my bed. Hah, i'm so lazy. It's unbelievable. I like it though, so too bad.

While I was cleaning and stuff, I found my old diaries under my mattress! Ha-ha! That's so cliche. :P Anywho, there was also a box. In that box was notes between me and my mom. Look, here's one:

Dear Mommy,
What was that new thing you could get in Insaniquarium? I'm kind of glad I didn't go to Alyssa's from Saturday to Sunday. Now I get to go to the mall with you! Christmas shopping is fun! Alyssa and I are going to exchange gifts too. I know exactly what she wants!

Love,
Miranda
XoXo

Mom's Response:

Good! Then make sure you let Alyssa know that we have plans this weekend so she knows. We'll have a good time you and me. :)

Love you,
Mom

Here's another to Doug, one of my mom's ex-boyfriends. I even wrote notes to him! Aw, I was adorable.

Dear Doug,
Have a fun day! Tee-hee. Since there's no school, I won't have to take--LASAGNA! Especially not Emeril's. How gross. Zucchini? I've had it before though. I think with Alyssa. We added stuff in it. Well, bye!

Love,
Miranda
XoXo

Doug's Response:

We didn't wake you up. Sorry. :( We were running late and it's way too cold out! Don't go outside today. HAVE A FUN DAY! :) Finish up the lasagna instead of ramen noodles. And don't eat all the oatmeal cream pies! Save some for your school snack.

BAM! :D
Talk to you later.

Love,
Doug

I'm so cool. :) Well, not really. You catch my drift though.

I actually wanted Masai to come over today, but he's hanging out with his family right now. He said that if he had time that he'd come over. :)

I really have nothing else to write. It's 4:30PM, but the day has barely begun for me. Pathetic. :(

Well that's all for now I suppose. I'll post again later if something occurs worth knowing. :P

Wee!d,

Hello again day four. I'm back with stuff to say.

I wrote a song! It's called "All on You". It was inspired by that kid, you know who. :) I didn't like my singing in this one all that much, but oh well. I did like the song overall. I put it up on my music myspace and it's good to go!

It's already 6PM. Tomorrow is Friday! I don't know what i'm doing over the weekend actually. I need to make some plans. My mom is going to a party on Saturday with Ellen. That sounds fun for them. I still don't know what i'm gonna be doing though.

I'm surrounded by drugs. I won't lie, i'm scared. It's so easy to get. I know exactly where to get it if I wanted it. I don't want it though. These two kids in my class love smoking weed. They know so much about it. I sit there and learn about weed. There's different kinds, different terms, just so many things. I sound like such a retard though, because there are a LOT of teens that know all of this already. I definitely don't. I always said I would never do drugs because I don't like the fact that I wouldn't have control over my body. They told me that if I smoked weed I would still have control, the only thing is that I would be super happy and giddy. I'll be honest, it sounds fun. They do make it awfully convincing, but they still haven't convinced me. They make it sound like a really good thing. It's supposed to make you happier. It's also organic. You can't get addicted to it--you'll just want to do it again. If this stuff is so great, then why is it illegal? And why do they make millions of corny and crappy commercials about being above the influence?! I don't understand. Then my other friend told me that if you did it everyday, then it would weaken you physically. Okay, so if I only did it once, then i'd be just fine? I'll never know though, since i'm not going to do it.

I don't think I like loving somebody that gets high all the time.