Wee!d,

Hello again day four. I'm back with stuff to say.

I wrote a song! It's called "All on You". It was inspired by that kid, you know who. :) I didn't like my singing in this one all that much, but oh well. I did like the song overall. I put it up on my music myspace and it's good to go!

It's already 6PM. Tomorrow is Friday! I don't know what i'm doing over the weekend actually. I need to make some plans. My mom is going to a party on Saturday with Ellen. That sounds fun for them. I still don't know what i'm gonna be doing though.

I'm surrounded by drugs. I won't lie, i'm scared. It's so easy to get. I know exactly where to get it if I wanted it. I don't want it though. These two kids in my class love smoking weed. They know so much about it. I sit there and learn about weed. There's different kinds, different terms, just so many things. I sound like such a retard though, because there are a LOT of teens that know all of this already. I definitely don't. I always said I would never do drugs because I don't like the fact that I wouldn't have control over my body. They told me that if I smoked weed I would still have control, the only thing is that I would be super happy and giddy. I'll be honest, it sounds fun. They do make it awfully convincing, but they still haven't convinced me. They make it sound like a really good thing. It's supposed to make you happier. It's also organic. You can't get addicted to it--you'll just want to do it again. If this stuff is so great, then why is it illegal? And why do they make millions of corny and crappy commercials about being above the influence?! I don't understand. Then my other friend told me that if you did it everyday, then it would weaken you physically. Okay, so if I only did it once, then i'd be just fine? I'll never know though, since i'm not going to do it.

I don't think I like loving somebody that gets high all the time.

TUMMY aCHE?,

Hello there day four!

I'm not feeling too well. My stomach is really killing me. It hurts a lot! :( I actually came home early today just cause of it! It was hurting last night too, which is why I hardly got any sleep. Then this morning it was sort of bothering me, and it got me off to a late start. I took some medicine though and it lasted for a while. Then 4|5 period came around and the pain started to build right back up. I actually didn't want to leave school, cause after 4|5, the rest of the school day is great.

My brother picked me up, and I would tell you what he said to me, but it's a secret until further notice. ;)

Oh! Oh! Oh! I forgot to tell you what amazing thing happened to me this morning! It's like all my dreams came true. :) Remember how I mentioned that I missed this one kid? Yes! Well I had a fight with him, and that's why we had stopped talking. HOWEVER, I sent him this apology text, and he never replied to it. That was a while ago, but then this morning he came up to me. :) He came up to me and he said that he was sorry for not replying, and that he accepted my apology. I wanted to cry. I was so infused with happiness! I gave him a hug and I said thank you. I actually said it twice. I was speechless--this is what i've been wishing for! Now I can proudly say that good things come to those who wait. :D I'm not letting him slip away this time! ;)

I really don't have much else to say now. It's only about 12:18PM. The day has hardly begun!

I can't tell you how much happier I am now that I'm talking to that kid again. :) I didn't realize how upset and depressed I actually was. I honestly had no idea! I thought I was just doing okay. No wonder I didn't feel the same lately. Now I feel like my regular super peppy, happy self. It's all thanks to him. Note to self: Don't let him slip away ever again.

Mia stayed home today too. She told me she was sick. I wonder how she's doing?

Well that's all i've got for now. If something else happens later, I'll post again. :) Goodbye!