Awake at Night,

It's day forty-five. Holy crap man.

I had this really bad stomach-ache today. I sort of almost went home early? Not really. Actually, no, I didn't.

Last night I fell asleep around somewhere like 7 or 8. I don't know why, I didn't really mean to fall asleep, but I did. Then I woke up again around midnight. I woke up for the last time at 4AM, and I decided that even though I was extremely tired, that I'd go shower and get ready for school. I normally don't shower in the morning, but I didn't shower that night, or prepare my self for school the next day. You know? Everything was just so off course. Even though I had gotten a pretty good night's sleep, I guess, I was still really tired.

I don't really know what else to say. My stomach is still hurting. STUPID BODY! GET BETTER!

What?,

Hello day thirty-nine! :P

I don't even know what i'm really talking about. I'm just kind of like, "whoo!" I guess.

I found out some things today. Aw, but they can't be mentioned. Gosh,I hate when that happens. Maybe I should have a blog with a password. You know what I mean? Oh gosh, that would be really cool! They have passwords for certain websites & such, right? I should have one too! Does it cost money? I don't even know. Maybe I should look into that.

While I was on the phone with Queen today, some girl was calling me on the other line. I answered it & she said, " Hey, do you know Mia? "
I couldn't really comprehend it too well in my brain so I just said, " what? "
Then she said, " Do you know Amanda? "
I said, " Wait... what?"
Then she said, " Do you know Mia!? "
I said, " Oh, uh, yes, "
Then she kind of yelled at me, " Well she said she's going to beat you up tomorrow, so be prepared #@!$. "
I just said, " okay " and went back to my phone conversation with Queen. I talked to Mia about it and it's not even true. Silly girls calling me on restricted numbers. :)

Okay, I don't even know what else to talk about anymore. I guess I can just end it here.

Oh! My mom said she's taking me to some kind of ballroom dancing class on Friday night. I guess it'll be fun. I don't really know what to expect of it, but I guess I'll have fun. I mean, I always have fun with my mommy. :)

Full Moon,

Hello hello day thirty-seven! :)

I haven't talked to my friend Sid in a while. That makes me pretty sad. :(

Yesterday I was having a terrible day. Everything was so stressing, and I was so tired. I just wasn't happy at all, and I felt as though I had no hope. However, last night wasn't so bad. The bad mood was settling towards the end of the day. Luckily, I was a lot better today! Everything was going beautifully. I was happy, I had a really good night's rest, and things were just flowing nicely.

I wish I could really tell you about my day in detail, but I have some private things that I couldn't just share with everyone. I'm sorry. Just know that it was a spectacular day. :)

I think this good mood was caused by a full moon; which there was today. I don't know. I'm really into astrology and all that. They tell me that my planet, or whatever, would be the moon. It's my symbol or sign. I actually have high belief in that. Whenever the moon is out and it's full, something amazing happens. Weird, but true.

I actually got my retainer yesterday. It sort of makes me talk with a lisp. I think it's funny. I enjoy wearing it though, to be honest. It feels really cool in my mouth. It's not like a regular wire retainer. It's a plastic replica of my teeth. I just slip it over my teeth, and it's like it's not even there! It's great. :) It was $400 though, which is pretty bad. I'm glad I have them though.

Not much else to say. I'm really going to try and lose weight though. I don't know how many times I've said it, but I really want to. I'm determined.

Well, that's all. Goodbye!

Why Do I Feel Like This?,

a little something i wrote;
by miranda fuentes.

but the blood flowing through my veins hurts..
&my heart still shivers when you walk past.

my mind is screaming from the pain i'm hiding.

&the wind just blows right through me.

like i've never felt before, but almost the same..
my body weakens with every refrain.

looking up to the sky only to breathe once more;
the soft moonlight against my eyes
begs my tears to pour.



...why do i feel like this?

Long Day,

Hello there day thirty-four. Wow, that's a lot of days.

Well Queen slept over last night. We stayed up until 6AM making a video. It was fun. :) It was our chickachicka-lamblamb rap. It's a funny rap. I won't tell you the lyrics though. They're bad lyrics. Anywho, today we went to the movies and saw Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist. It was such a cute movie. I suggest watching it. :)

It's been a long day and i'm pooped. I want to mention something that happened today also, but I don't think my mom wants me to mention it. I'll just keep quiet.

I just want to sing this song to send almost a message out there:

" You look so dumb right now standing outside my house. Trying to apologize, you're so ugly when you cry. Please--just cut it out. "

Nobody will know what I'm talking about... except maybe Queen. Perhaps my mommy too, but you never know.

I am REALLY thirsty. I'm going to get a drink, lay down, do laundry, and sleep. Goodbye.

You Don't Know My Name,

Big Bird,

Hello day twenty-nine! It's going to be day thirty in about ten minutes. :)

I remember reading about this story of "Big Bird" when I was younger in a book that my great uncle had. I decided to look it up, and here is the odd story of "Big Bird":

The term Big Bird in this particular instance does not refer to the lovable 6 foot tall, yellow feathered bird from the hit children’s show Sesame Street but rather a mysterious creature that was sighted several times in the Rio Grande Valley of deep South Texas during the mid 1970’s. Big Bird, as the creature was dubbed, was described by witnesses as being five feet tall, having a huge wingspan of up to 12 feet and possessing two large red eyes on a gorilla like face.

On January 7, 1976, policemen Arturo Padilla of San Benito, Texas, spotted something unusual in the headlights of his cruiser. Padilla described the creature as looking like a big bird, a really big bird. A few minutes later Padilla’s fellow officer, Homer Galvan, also reported seeing the creature in the form of a black silhouette that glided through the air.

The evening of January 7, 1976 a man by the name of Alverico Guajardo of Brownsville, Texas, encountered the creature, describing it as a giant bat.

On January 14, 1976 a man named Armando Grimaldo, at Raymondville, heard a sound like the flapping of bat like wings and a funny kind of whistling, as he pondered the source of the sound large claws gripped his back and ripped his shirt. He described his assailant as a flying creature with leather skin and a monkey like face.

You can't tell me that doesn't sound a little freaky to you! What would you say to yourself if you saw that!? I would die.

Well Queen is sleeping over tonight. She has a headache right now though, so she's taking a nap. I'm going to wake her up in 5 minutes. I just wanted to share this story with you all.

Brace-free,

Hello day twenty-eight again! :)

Yes, it's true, my braces are off! It feels like such a relief to have them off. I'm glad they're off. My teeth are all smooth and slick. I love brushing my teeth, it's so fun!

I'm hoping that I can sleepover Queen's tomorrow. I don't know if my mommy will let me, but I hope she will. I love hanging out with Queen. :) She's such a joy to be around.

There's no school this Thursday either! It's Yom Kippur. Wait, that's correct, right? It's "Yom", right? I'm gonna feel bad if it's wrong!

Have you ever been rejected before? Not trying to be conceited, but I've never really known rejection. Rejection and I don't really click. However, remember when I said that I thought my cousin's friend Kevin was cute? Well, I told my cousin to just ask what he thought of me, and to tell him that I like him. My cousin calls him and Kevin ends up saying that I'm not really his type and he just met me and he's not really interested. I'm not dying over here, but I'm just saying. I think i'm just trying to process it all in my brain. I guess it doesn't matter. Well actually, it doesn't. I'm okay with it actually. It would really never work--I wouldn't really ever get to see him. Oh well. Easy come, easy go. Is that the right quote to use?

I think it's a little ironic that the orthodontist gave me a cup of candy when I left after getting my braces off. It's almost like, "Congratulations on getting your braces off! Now here's some candy so you can ruin your brand new teeth!". I don't know, I just thought it was funny. I like the candy though, and it's a cute mug. The lady told me that when it's filled with hot water, that the braces on the smile will go away. Cute, right?

Well alright, I have a few things I'd like to take care of before I head to bed. Farewell! :)

Off Course,

Hello day twenty-eight! :)

Well it's actually the beginning of day twenty-eight. It's about 3:30AM right now. I woke up about an hour & a half ago. I feel so off course. Normally my day goes as so: go to school, come home, eat, nap, wake up, dinner (sometimes), computer, sleep. However, today went as so: went to school, came home, ate, learned a cup beat, walked around outside and inside and did the cup beat for about 3 hours, taught the cup beat to Jamal, watched tv, ate dinner, did the cup beat with jamal again, watched tv again, fell asleep on the couch, woke up, slept. Do you see? I like this off course feeling though. My days are normally lazy and boring.

I was with Jamal about 5 minutes ago. He was awake too, but he was getting tired. I talked with him for a while and once he fell asleep I left. I stayed until he fell asleep because I remember when I wanted somebody to stay with me when I fell asleep, but nobody would stay. It might not have mattered to him, but I guess it mattered to me.

I'm watching Fresh Prince of Bel-Air right now. Hooray! Will Smith is so entertaining. :)

Wow! I only have about 4 hours left with my braces. This is going to be an odd departure. I actually liked having braces. I remember when I was smaller and I saw my brother with braces. I wanted them so badly. I thought it'd be great to have them. I was right actually. My smile is going to be pretty great when these braces come off. I am pretty excited.

I just want to stop being sick already. I hate sleeping when i'm sick because when I wake up I feel all groggy and miscombobulated. Is that a word?

I'm wide awake right now. It's a good thing I'm not going to school tomorrow, or else I would be pretty darn tired.

Well I suppose I'll stop for now. I didn't realize, but according to my counter, there are a lot of people that just read this. Hi people reading this! It's so interesting that people I don't know are being informed about my life. Well actually, now that I've given it some thought, that sounds a bit creepy. Ah, well.

Goodbye! :)

Playboy Bunny Purse,

Day twenty-six! :)

I didn't post an entry yesterday, and I just realized that.

Yesterday I did a bunch of chores and went to the mall with my cousin Anthony. Aside from the fact I was hanging out with a bunch of guys, it was pretty fun. :) I met new people! Their names were Tim, Kevin, and Norman. They didn't talk to me much. I guess they were shy. I actually thought Kevin was kind of cute. ;) While at the mall, I bought a Playboy Bunny Purse for seven dollars! It was originally twenty-four dollars, but I got a good discount.

Today I went to Banzai with my mommy for lunch. I just found out that my brother is the manager there! We got to eat free. ;) It was funny because I knew a chunk-load of people that worked there.

That's really all I did today. I'm getting over my sickness fast, which is AWESOME.

Oh yeah! Guess what? My braces come off in TWO DAYS. :D

Well that's all I suppose. Goodbye!

Spongebob and Friday Nights,

Day twenty-four! :)

I think i'm coming down with something! :( I can feel it in my throat. Oh no! I hate being sick!

Here I am doing nothing on a Friday night. I don't have a boring life, do I? I choose to live my life this way!

Last night I went with my mom and Joanne to karaoke! :) It was fun. I made a lot of old MEN happy. >.>

I don't really have anything else to write. Tomorrow should be fun. I'm going to the mall with Anthony and his friend. :)

Masai was sick today. :( I didn't get to see him yesterday or today! Not cool. :T

Spongebob is on. :) I like Spongebob. Maybe i'll go watch Spongebob. :)

Farewell! :D

Pain,

Day Twenty-Three? :)

I'm in pain today. :( My chest hurts, and i'm all nauseous. I'm trying not to sleep though, cause then it's just gonna mess up my whole day. I'm just here trying to cope with the pain. Luckily my mommy let me stay home today, or else i'd be in pain AND in school. Not the best combination. Oh and to top everything off, I have this extremely painful growing pain in both of my legs. Hopefully it goes away though.

I'm thinking about hanging out with my cousin Anthony on Saturday. I think it'll be fun. I hope my mom lets me go. I don't know how i'd get there though, honestly. I was hoping that Anthony's mom could drop me off with him? I don't want to cause any inconvenience though. His friend is going too, I forgot his name. I think it was Norman Li. It sounds fun though, right? It's better than me just sitting at home and staring at a wall like I do on a regular basis.

Sasha keeps running away! She's such a big fat-fatty. I let Pepper out, and there she is, zooming outside the door. She doesn't love us. :( She always comes back though.

Okay, i'm in pain now, so i'm going to go. Goodbye!

Happy October 1st,

Day Twenty-Two! :) Also, Happy October 1st!

I don't really know what to write about though.

This is just random, that's why there's a pretty picture of the sky to your left.

I don't have anything to say, but I wish I did.

I think i'm going to go take a shower now.

Alright, goodbye! :)